Keith Urban got candid about 'lonely and miserable' tour life before Nicole Kidman separation

Keith Urban appeared to have Nicole Kidman on his mind months before their separation Urban returned to television screens Sunday for the premiere of The Road a reality television show that follows a dozen up-and-coming musicians competing for a chance to open for the musician as he tours the country During the series premiere Urban performed Straight Line from his latest album High The song kicks off Urban's th studio album which was disclosed in September and reflects on the desire to break free from a soul-sucking routine he explained on Instagram last year NICOLE KIDMAN SHARES WISDOM ON OVERCOMING DEVASTATING TIMES AMID KEITH URBAN DIVORCE I chose it first for a lot of reasons but particularly because I think it represents an capacity and spirit that became a through line of the whole record Urban communicated social media followers in February I m gonna cover a lot of themes emotions and vibes on this album but a very human spirit runs through them all NICOLE KIDMAN SEEMINGLY HINTED AT KEITH URBAN SPLIT WEEKS BEFORE DIVORCE FILINGHe noted that 'Straight Line' is wanting to break out of a soul-sucking routine that you might be stuck in maybe in a relationship a job with creativity with yourself whatever it is It s a message of feeling alive again and getting out from under that dark cloud APP USERS CLICK HERE TO VIEW POSTWhile the episode was filmed before Kidman filed for divorce from the Somebody Like You singer in September Urban discussed feeling lonely and miserable while on the road Where do we start It s a calling and you re going to do it or you re not going to make it Urban revealed CLICK HERE TO SIGN UP FOR THE ENTERTAINMENT NEWSLETTER When you wake up on a tour bus at in the morning and you re sick as a dog you re in the middle of nowhere and you ve got to play your fifth show later that night and you haven t slept and you miss your friends and you re missing your family and you re thoroughly lonely and miserable and sick and you say to yourself Why am I doing this ' The Grammy Award-winning artist confessed The only answer can be because this is what I m born to do We re going to find out who s made for that stuff on this show LIKE WHAT YOU RE READING CLICK HERE FOR MORE ENTERTAINMENT NEWSKidman and Urban were last publicly seen together in June at a FIFA Club World Cup match in Nashville between Los Angeles Football Club and Esperance de Tunis The Big Little Lies actress filed for divorce in September on the grounds of irreconcilable differences while also noting marital difficulties in documents obtained by Fox News Digital In Kidman's divorce filing the Oscar-winner requested to be named the primary residential parent of their two minor children Additionally she petitioned the court to approve a parenting plan for their daughters which allocated days per year with her and days each year with Urban